Christ's Letter

I don't want to get out of bed today.


God give me the courage and strength to walk into the next day.

I don't want to be a sob story.
I don't want to evoke pitty.

I honestly just want to be, to live, and to love.
I honestly want to trust in the Lord, especially in the pain, suffering, sickness, hurt, and loneliness.

I cannot change anything.

I can only accept the past and the present.

Time is my biggest FEAR.
Pride is my biggest SIN.


Break this away lord.
Break down my walls.

Take away my fears.
Take away my sins.

JESUS, I want to touch you.
with one touch, you heal.

I believe, Christ.
Help me speak about my hope in you.

Oh come, Oh come

As the Christmas season approaches, I have noticed I have not been excited about any of the various Christmas festivities. I normally am super excited for Christmas. But this year, I feel like I am the Grinch and Scrooge all mixed into one.
Why?
I have my thoughts and reasons, which mostly have to do with the big life change about to happen. I don't really want my life right now to change, I hate change. The events to come in my life flood my thoughts and dreams. The questions, fears, doubts, and hopes invade my mind.
All I seem to be able to do is remind myself, 'Just wait Megan. God is near. Wait!'

That's when it hit me yesterday at church during the lighting of the advent candle, we are ALL waiting represented by advent. We (the body of Christ) have lit two advent candles, and are waiting to light the remaining candles. We are all waiting. We are all waiting to celebrate the most important change our lives and this world will ever have encountered. Waiting to celebrate the birth of Christ, who destroys all our questions, fears, doubts and who is our ultimate hope.

The birth of our Savior. The birth of the One who gives us true life.

Yet, here I am, my mind more preoccupied with the small, futile, fleeting season of my life.
No wonder why my joy is gone!

Oh God, forgive me. Thank you for the gift of your beloved son. Thank you for sending Him to save us. Forgive me that I am more focused on my life than on His life.

I would rather wait for and meditate on your truly life changing birth of Christ, than focus any more energy on my changing life. You are the true life.

Oh come, Oh Come Jesus.

I will wait.


Oh, come, Oh, come, Emmanuel,
And ransom captive Israel
That mourns in lonely exile here
Until the Son of God appear
Rejoice! Rejoice! Emmanuel
Shall come to thee, O Israel

Oh, come, Thou Rod of Jesse, free
Thine own from Satan's tyranny;
From depths of hell Thy people save
And give them victory o'er the grave
Rejoice! Rejoice! Emmanuel
Shall come to thee, O Israel

Rejoice! Rejoice! Emmanuel
Shall come to thee, O Israel


I will WAIT, because He has come.
I will REJOICE, because He has come.
I will be JOYFUL, because He has come.