Dreams, Stuck, Dad, and June 14th

My last blog...
was a little sad.

I think I realized the enormity of my dream and the infinitesimal amount of time that is left. I was down, I was low, and I had not really had any encouragement for a while. Thankfully, I was able to finally connect with my parents. The people I have met here are great but I knew that I really just needed to get some sturdy, dependable advice. Who better then my dad!? So, I knew what I need to do just to talk to my dad. We really said a lot of things that I needed to hear. I felt like I was climbing a giant rock wall, and I was positioned half way up. I was hanging there stuck and overwhelmed! There were many things my dad explained to me about dreams, and I am going to share a few of my favorites.
First, he told me that he wanted to achieve my dream, which in itself was very reassuring. Sometimes, when we don't have someone to reassure your dreams, it is easy to feel a little hopeless.

Next, he continued to say, What is the worst thing that could happen, if you pursue your dream and don't achieve it? (A very good question, because in this time I was haunted by an invalid fear of failing.) The next question, which is related to this was... What is the best thing that could happen, if you pursue your dream and don't achieve? Well, you will find yourself on a new territory of a new dream!
Here is when it hit me, I have always dreamed of living in Mexico. Living here and experience such a beautiful culture was a huge dream of mine. And I was doing that exact dream. In effect, I was scared because I no longer had another dream or direction. As you all may know, I thrive on having a next step, like a goal, another mountain to climb, something else to aim for in the next part of life. If I don't it is easy for me to become very complacent. But with the question my dad purposed, I realized I really am standing on a new territory of a new dream and I have not lost anything! To me that is a beautiful thing.
My dad then addressed, the struggle a dreamer seems to go through in the process of perusing his dream, and the overwhelming about of fear of falling flat on your face. However, my dad explained with many examples that you maybe you are afraid of a big dream
and you don't want to fail, but the safe living leads to regret later on in life. And I never want to regret anything, I loathe the idea of regret.
Next we talked about the biggest rode block in our lives can be people and what they may say about our dreams. What I learned is that people can attack us, take physical things away from us, but they can never take our thoughts. If I continue to think what I know I can do, I will be able to do it.
My dad also said that Bold DREAMS can change you, while they are changing the world around you!!! Well, this dream of living here, speaking Spanish really has changed me, but not into a different person. The comment really just hit my feelings like a bulls eye, because I am changing in this dream, and the world is defiantly changing. But what I want to emphasis is that I'm not changing into a whole new person. I am no different to who I was before I left. I just thing I am now becoming who I have felt I was all along.
A friend asked a couple of us, when we return from Guanajuato, how will we be different?
I thought about it, and I just don't know if I will be different. I will be the same. However, I will just have continued being Megan for the last five months with a new place and new people. This time here will change me, but I think overall the time has only really just changed the world around me.
During this conversation, I asked my dad how he does it? How he works hard and succeeds. He replied by saying, "I get up, I say a prayer of thanks, and I give the day over to him. I just try to live day by day."
Well, that is what I have been doing, living day by day. And I feel a lot less stressed, stuck and overwhelmed with the things that are ahead.
I am here, I doing what I need, the lord is teaching me and I am growing.
I may not be doing everything, I had wanted or planned to do, but I am just getting up, praying, and handing over the day. Because "Yesterday is a cancelled check, tomorrow is a promissory note, TODAY is the ONLY CASH YOU HAVE! SPEND IT WELL!"

So I am going to spend my "cash" well!!

My dad then finished by saying that... We can see in the book of James, that it is the thinking you have that will lead you to the success to your dream. And when we worry about the dream, we begin messing up.
He said don't let anyone steal your dream… Build on to your dream with little steps and little success everyday!!
Then when I see you at the airport on June 14th, and you will have achieved your dream!
Well, Dad... I am doing this day by day...
I will see you June 14th with my dream accomplished.